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A Studio, the Aperture of Aspiration

Desk left, a tapestried wall reminiscent of art mounted in the salon style (I should note that this was sewed together all by my lonesome!). One day, a carefully curated collection will hang in its place. Desk front, a salvaged punched tin magnetic board. Desk right, the early stages of fabric bombing.

Had I known that carving out a creative nook in my New York apartment would be a feat of physical and emotional proportions, I may have outsourced the event.

I waffled. I pouted. I wailed.  I hit my head and teared to my husband.

I endured design distress.

What was this Blank Canvas?  It was doubt. For days I sat in paralysis, angered and frustrated by its sterile presence.  How would I summon the self understanding to make a space that reflected me – not only in this moment but through time?

The beauty and the beast of design is that it forces one to make decisions that most likely will not represent the future self.  It’s an exercise in value.  What object is worthy of wall space now?  How does one know?

You see, in the magazines the process and the product of designing a space happen at once.  At the end of the spread, there’s always a tidy, soul-fulfilling environment that speaks volumes about the person inside.  Within a single afternoon, meaning is ascribed to material.

But I can’t take the pressure, which is why I call my humble zone an “aperture of aspiration,” a place that I cannot yet attribute meaning (though, I’m sensing an inkling) but has all aspiration of evolving into one – over time.

The Materials~

* A punched tin tile salvaged from a demo in the Lower East Side.  Perfectly so, these tiles are a fun magnetic surface for savory images, this or even that.

* Ghost Salon Tapestry, a nod to our collecting dreams. Comprised of black swatches that hang in lieu of the artworks that will one day hang, salon style, in our home.  I picked the succulent oriental motif fabrics, traced shapes using our favorite gratin dishes and bread plates, and finally sewed them onto the backdrop.

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* Fabric bombing has begun.  Discarded seam binding, gift ribbons, scraps and swatches that I have used will be the only materials to wrap the unsightly poles.

* A miscellany of my own darkroom exposures, brads, pushpins, cards, ephemera, inspirations are welcome on all walls, tapestry and magnetic surfaces –  through time.

How have you shaped your studio?  How has your studio shaped you?

Oh, and a strapping hug goes out to each of you for helping me through this.  I brought all of you with me into the streets of New York and this inward journey!

Textured Time

What a week! As I sit from my perch at the side of a quiet, yet dignified old brownstone fireplace amongst the personal effects that make my life meaningful: husband, heavy tomes + light novellas alike, a sundry of objets trouves from our travels,and one special piece I made called Textured Time, I sense an approaching serenity.

Quelle surprise. This is the sentiment of a woman who usually finds herself in a flurry of activity on Sunday.  Always. Wanting. More. Until sidelined with a physically debilitating and emotionally crushing flu that threw me into a serious bout of self reflection.

Last night when my husband buried me under the covers, willing my fever to break, a slew of images swirled about. In the onset of visual vertigo and a deafening – literally – ear infection, I relived the week’s monumental happenings.

The private event at the Museum of Art & Design, the culmination of a month-long sprint of politicking and art prattling, turned out to be one of the most rewarding art events I’ve planned to date.

This photo reminds me of the days I used to coordinate luncheons in the arts for prominent art collectors. This one, though, had the Clueless Crafter branded all over it: lighthearted exchange amongst a bevy of beautiful and intriguing decorative objects.

The article Don’t Do It Yourself, born out of a year’s rumination on the rewards and risks of the handmade life.

The handmade clock Textured Time (which I truly adore and therefore named!) is the result of the Bauhaus Lab I attended at The Museum of Modern Art.

My interpretation of a day recorded in the material world. Feathers mark daybreak; creams punctuated by black velour signify the struggle to wake; soft blues and silkyviolet show the daily humdrum; and, heavy orange plaids are the day's seconds woven together, fiery with hope and the prospect of another day richly lived.

And now last week’s excitement is screeching to a halt and another week is on the brink.  I am left with sights, sounds, and feelings of a time that will never have the same texture.  There is a profound sense of loss as I grapple with the past and the will to go forward.  What next?

The hard part about life is loss.  Sometimes all we can do is cling longingly to a relic.  I’m glad that this evening I have Textured Time with me.  Thank god I made it.

What textures of time gone by do you cherish most?

Curate to Differentiate?

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Image credit Tim Gough

TheCluelessCrafter.com: Exploring the Craft of becoming self Made.

Huh? Whaaat?  I know. . . . I know.  Such a mouthful! I’m itching to do an overhaul of this cumbersome tagline, to welcome you to a site that sparkles from top to bottom.

Yes, I’ve had trouble branding my blog before.  Back at it again!  This time, despite all the “I, me” talk, I (oh god, I’m saying it again) need your help!

Which brings me to this.  In the Sunday, October 4th Style Section of the New York Times,  Alex Williams’ article “On the Tip of Creative Tongues” got me thinking big. The topic: curate. Once a high-minded word pertaining exclusively to the management and dissemination of museum quality art works, it has been refashioned to meet a new need.  Today, so it seems, many creatives want to be part of the curate continuum.  We all want to feel we can curate a fine-tuned collection of something, right?  Etsy, for example, invites guest curators – a spicey version of guest bloggers – to contribute to its site. Eric Demby, founder of Brooklyn Swap Meet, swears he “personally curates the food stands.”

I believe I curate all aspects of my life, large and small.  I pick and choose meaningful people to fold into my private world as carefully as I select the napkin that will go with the flatware.  I’m trying to curate some dynamic, harmonious whole that represents the essence of me.

I’m editing the world into what I want to see.  This is the world I want to live and die in. So, too, are many artists and crafters.

Voting Time

In your HONEST (preferably, gentlest) opinion, does what I’m saying even make sense? If this is not a baseless argument, please vote on some of the new versions I’ve come up with.

TheCluelessCrafter.com. . .

  1. Exploring the craft of the self curated
  2. Exploring the craft of the curated self
  3. Exploring the craft of the spiritedly curated
  4. Exploring the craft of the passionately curated
  5. Eeek! They’re all no good

What’s Your blog’s tagline and Why?

Voyeurism and the Artist’s Open Studio

The rebranded totally revamped incarnation of the Museum of Art and Design (formerly, the American Craft Museum) openend last Septemeber 2008 at Columbus Circle, a bustling intersection on Manhattan’s Upper West Side and Central Park South.  As part of the institution’s education and outreach program, it hosts Artist Open Studios every day of the week on the 6th floor.  Last Sunday, I stopped in to see what Bridget Parris, a skilled Industrial Designer with home hardgood designs gracing Anthropologie’s catalogs, the european-inspired women’s wear and decor specialist, was creating.  On the bus ride to the museum, I was envisioning a post about the rewards of visiting an open studio, of learning first-hand from the artist, crafter or designer by joining in on a student-teacher dialogue.  I further hoped to pick up a skill or technique for a future craft.  What came from the visit, however, was entirely unexpected.

Watching someone at work, in the midst of a creative moment, feels invasive and uncomfortably personal.

In an open studio context, you quickly get the impression that there are unspoken rules of engagement.  Do not stare;  scan the studio with enthusiasm; never fix eyes on something that may appear unfinished, private; look interested; refrain from too many questions when s/he is creating; make art-intelligent statements; mind your step — these items are one of a kind!;  maintain appropriate physical and metaphorical distance between you, the subordinate, and the artist-teacher.  In the presence of art and craft making, behavior is heavily coded, turning what should be a pleasant, informative experience into quite possibly one of the most awkward encounters a person could have.

Ever walked in on someone naked, sharing equally in their horror as you turn to panic?  That’s exactly how I experience an artist’s open studio — can’t get out of there fast enough, yet am compelled to stay and mingle in the artist’s private practice.

Gustave Caillebotte (1848-1894), a wealthy French realist-impressionist artist painted crafts and tradesmen at work.  Caillebotte’s pictorial treatment of the laboring class came to mind at Parris’s open studio, where I sensed I was more voyeur than visitor.

Caillebotte_floor_scrapers_1875 Above, The Floor Scrapers by Gustave Cailebotte, 1875 (oil on canvas) 57 1/2 in. x 40 in.

The 1875 painting Les raboteurs de parquet or The Floor Scrapers, a study Caillebotte did of the working class laborers hired to repair his studio, is a poignant rendering of the complex relationship between the upper and working classes and between the fine artist and the skilled artist/artisan. Caillebotte depicts the sweat and raw muscularity of men in the throes of backbreaking labor.  The physical possession of his subjects goes beyond Caillebotte’s preference to paint the men nearly naked, stripped of their privacy, but to the formal qualities of the work itself.  The angle that the viewer enters the scene is from above, pinning the men firmly in the control of the artist and by proxy our gaze.  The power of the artist is asserted further by the imposed sense of claustrophobia, signifying a tenor of ownership. If you are inclined, Norma Broude’s book Gustave Caillebotte and the Fashioning of Identity in Paris and Terry E. Smith’s In Visible Touch:  Modernism and Masculinity both offer additional in-depth analyses into the subject.

Caillebotte channeled the inherent discomfort, perhaps anxiety, that arises from a relationship in which power is unevenly distributed.  Unlike Caillebotte I was not the dominating force in the open studio dynamic, which would have ideally constructed the perfect opportunity to absorb all the lessons that the expert desired to impart.  However,  the sense that I had violated a sacred space, whether perceived or true, prevented the free-flowing exchange of information.

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Above, The House Painters by Gustave Caillebotte, 1876 (oil on canvas) approx. 35 in. x 45 in.

What has been your experience in the studio?  I am quite curious!

For Every Failure, a Triumph

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Above, a sweet reminder of the soul-fulfilling joy of the handcrafted

Yesterday, in the midst of baking cupcakes soaked in a simple sugar of Grand Marnier (shameless plug) for the evening’s Badger Book Club, I experienced a renewed sense of self that I had feared died with the art fair fiasco.  In the kitchen where I was the leader of my own domain, calling upon stand mixer and sugar thermometer to work harmoniously in favor of a common goal, I was bowled over by the scent of power.  As the cupcake batter rose, so did I.

While I am not exposing anything new, it is amazing how often we forget what power rests in our own hands, that the manipulation of a whisk can correlate to a repaired sense of self.  I believe that is how, as I cautiously surveyed a boiling pot of sugar, I came to remember this event:

First In-Person Interview of a Crafter:

Leah Parkhurst’s Studio, Rustbelt Fiberwerks
Friday, July 10th
Milwaukee, WI

As I develop and refine the thrust of thecluelesscrafter.com, which is indeed a work in-progress, I have revamped several of my initial ideas.  The first iteration of this site was to be an online journal devoted to my musings upon crafting from a person who has little experience in the matter.  It quickly came to be that I would need to understand craft from crafters and non-crafters’ perspective.  Truth be told, I knew I would need to substantiate my thoughts, sometimes blathers, with experts in the area.  Which brought me to the Interview a Crafter, Artisan, Artist idea, or Phase II of thecluelesscrafter.com.  Ideally, I wanted to play to my passion and strength in relationship building.  Although I flubbed at the fair, I most often find that I listen well to others.  Leah was the first in-person interview before the online Interview form was posted;  I was reminded why I care about what I am doing.

Much like myself, Leah is pursuing a career, one might say a way of life, that hinges upon the betterment of the self and those around her.  She crafts to enrich the everyday, reminding us that we share a history greater than ourselves.   Through the stitching together of found fabrics important to her life or once important to another’s, her aprons ground us in an aesthetic experience that enriches the present.  Leah also runs a business selling her craft, one that she says is becoming increasingly successful as the economy has grown increasingly unstable.  All this seems to suggest that the general population is looking to craft from a different angle.  So am I.

What I most notably derived from the interview is that craft as an art form and as a business is complex, more so as the economy undergoes intense fluctuation.  As it is no longer on trend to laud those that funnel bundles of cash into the pockets of dealers representing the current blue chip artists, crafters appear to be more in tune with our current reality.  When I asked Leah if my assumption that there exists a tension between artists and crafters was founded, her response was intriguing.  She recounted an event before a recent craft fair in which a large discussion was held over the topic of whether the exhibitors desired to be called crafters or artists.  It was apparently a heated debate with many taking opposing sides.  It seems clear that our definition of art and craft in our culture is undergoing serious reassessment.

Just how I tap into this world and garner its respect means that I need to devise a viable business model.  How do I fuse my quest for self actualization by delving into the handmade with my passion for understanding the broader implications of craft today with a revenue generating plan that will allow me to continue on this path?!

The only way I can think to get nearer to the root of the question is to step inside the craft world and make something.  I’ve been intending to try my hand at glass etching or candle making…

Taking The Clueless Crafter to the Streets

AFOTSPOSTER2009Art Fair on the Square 2009 flyer by Nick Wroblewski

I am quite nervous of what may come of this first survey attempt.  I wholly expect to be heartily chided or at least be the recipient of several disapproving glares for making the assumption that some of the exhibitors at the fair could possibly be classified as crafters.  I cannot flesh it out here (I hope over time my survey project will do just that) but I do know that terms such as crafter, artisan, and artist convey different meanings to both those who practice and those who patronize the arts.  I have heard that crafters are often associated with beautifying utilitarian objects while artists, perhaps, are equated with creating objects for intellectual and aestheic pleasure without regard to its function in our daily lives.  But, of course, this is an egregious generalization.  As for the artisan, I am in the dark.

From studying art history, I have learned that the art world has its own hierarchy.  Fine art has often been elevated to the realm of the intellect, appealing to a more refined, sophisticated viewer.  According to this hierarchy, this is why, although both have painted seascapes, Thomas Kinkade and Claude Lorrain are not considered to be of the same ilk.

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Thomas Kinkade, The Sea of Tranquility

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Claude Lorrain, Seaport 1674

I can recall one very poignant moment when I first registered the weight of of this topic and how it can spark the ire of those wrongly deemed a “crafter.” I happened to overhear a discussion a producer was having about a particular guest that was to appear on the show.  It was in regards to how the guest was to be introduced and then referred to during her segment.  As I was within an earshot of the exchange, I was able to gather that the guest had made an explicit request — I mean 100% explicit — to not be called a crafter.  If the demand was disregarded, from what I could conclude, she would not make an appearance on the show!  Clearly, to her, the word craft had a whole set of connotations that she quite affirmatively did not want to belong to.  It was at this juncture that I recognized how full my hands just may be.

Will going to the Art Fair on the Square two weeks from now open myself up to a similar wrath?  It seems that the exhibitors are being referred to as “artists” on the official event website:  http://www.mmoca.org/events/artfair/index.php despite, from what I can tell, showing works that appear to have the stereotypical craft-like qualities.  If I mention the word craft, will I be given the cold shoulder?  It is, after all, key that even those artists and artisans who refrain from being deemed crafters answer my survey.  Their voice will only further illuminate the discussion.

Until then, I have an ambition to begin yet another at-home craft project:  tea cup candles.  I am on the prowl for the tools, wax or whatever makes a candle work, and a how-to guide in plain English.  Through engaging my hands, I hope to occupy my mind enough to forget how nervous I am to commence Phase II!  If this candle-making project is anything like the magazine holder, I fear I may be more stressed.

Renegade Craft Fair, Brooklyn

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This past Saturday afternoon was a gloriously sunny day for a schlep to Brooklyn’s McCarren Park for a day of craft seeing in honor of the 2009 East Coast leg of the Chicago-based Renegade Craft Fair.  Thankfully my husband came along, helping make the 50-minute subway sojourn from Manhattan’s Upper West Side considerably less of a yawner.  Besides, we got a chance to read the Travel and Real Estate sections of the New York Times together.  Ahh, domestic bliss!

With our noses buried in the paper, neither of us realized that the L train to Williamsburg’s Bedford Avenue was taking us much further away from the utopic suburbia of the West 80s than we had imagined.  I was wearing. . .gasp. . .a blue striped Ralph Lauren polo.  With Prada sunglasses.  In Williamsburg! While the artfully disheveled hipsters may have not been judging me or us, the seemingly only married couple, I’ll go right ahead and stereotype.  We looked like priiiiicks!!  The gulf between us and them was plain old enormous, making me secretly wish that I had not gotten us so far out of our league. . .and that we could dive back into the subway and go 10,000 leagues under the sea.

Amidst the commotion of urban youth criss-crossing Bedford from one low key brunch joint to the corner bodega for a fresh pack of cigs, my husband and I noticed a large number heading North in the direction of the Renegade Craft Fair.  We joined in.  For the four or so blocks that we walked in step with the indie crowd, I spent the time rehashing my visions of the craft fairs of my youth.  These were not the hokey, might I say, hicky crocheting festivals to domestic idleness that I remember.  Rather, this shindig meant serious business, and that capitalism was well at work here.  These crafters (I find it interesting that the website for the Fair refers to the participants as “artists” or “artisans,” not crafters) were well trained in the visual and applied arts, lending generous doses of the latest trends in graphic design to their finished products.

“Pictorial Oddities”

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It didn’t take long for me to spot the prevailing trend, but whether I could explain it was a different story.  Why all the fuss over owls, birds, octopus, and dogs? It seemed like every booth from the felt handbag to the silkscreen tee had a slightly different storyline for these creatures, yet they came similarly packaged:  cutesy, simplified and often humorous — although, some verged on the morbid — versions of land and sea life, rendered in the boldness of primary color.  Indeed, as one booth declared on its signage, these were “pictorial oddities.”

Still at a loss for explanation, I googled the words, “crafting owl octopus” and was surprised to come upon an article from December 2008 titled, “Octopus Replaces Owl as Twee Mascot” (Time Out New York, December 16, 2008).  Ok, so I’ve picked up on something, despite being absolutely clueless to this “twee” word and its attendant world.  With further investigation, twee has a definition with deep cultural (-ly loaded) roots, originally tied to indie pop music of the late 80s in the UK.  Twee lyrics were fey and innocent, sung to the jangling of guitars and with a grand deference to sixties pop.  In its simplicity, though, twee symbolizes a passive revolt from the here-and-now, a soft, cuddly reversion into the aesthetics of childhood that today is all the rage.  When this pair of upwardly mobile yuppies stepped off the L Train, we had unwittingly entered an aesthetic revolution.  Suddenly, my misgivings about embarking upon a life of craft seemed unfounded.  Craft is again a movement taking on steam, confronting culture’s misconceptions about its merit by drawing us into its gingerbread fantasy and then stuffing us in the oven to bake.  That’s when it’s at its best:  serving up a powerful commentary on you and itself.

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Owl

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Morbidly cute?  Interesting commentary on taxidermy.

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Twee lifestyle

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Just a sampling of the different takes on the age-old sampler

As the purpose of my online musings on all things craft does not remotely concern itself with “reporting back” on great shops, trends or restaurants I visit, I would not include the links below.  But, as I have embarrassingly mentioned before, I have a shred of confidence that anyone would care how I would use craft to build myself into a whole woman.  Maybe this will never see a human’s eyes?  So, these links are for ME.  Hey, that felt quite good to say, even if only in private.

I recently got married.  I have time to cook wonderful meals.  I am a woman.  I think an apron is secretly awesome, but fear what it means for and about me at this stage in my life.  I am a daughter of a feminist.  I like a few these aprons, especially the crafter’s premise:

I have a deep knowledge of art history.  I have a graduate degree in all things pertaining to fine art and the art market.  Frames are fraught with tension because they are meant to elevate art without being noticed.  There’s a no-competition rule they are supposed to follow in the contemporary fine art world, which I think is a fascinating topic.  I empathize with the frame’s role.  The crafter (God, does he want to be called a crafter?  Who really does?  After all, he did attend the Craft Fair, so why not?) who repurposed these new frames into their lacquered look made them solely to showcase his work.  I asked for just the frames.

For more on the derivation of twee, click here.