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At the Guggenheim ~ Museums and Art Alienation

Guggenheim Rotunda. Photo by Robert C, c-monster.net

I have often found myself in front of a museum canvas – a Titian, an Ingres, a Pollock, what have you – deadly thumbing the vibrant band of beads around my neck, which only moments before had given pure delight.  All senses vanquished. Just numb.

Or dumb?

Why can’t I be moved?  Why doesn’t this priceless work captivate me? Where has the damn luster in my necklace escaped?

This art is better than I am.  It knows more than I.  Other people feel it, get it. I know it’s worth more than I could ever amount.  The auction records say so! It’s in a museum.

And here I say this, hailing from an educational and professional background that would assume otherwise.

Today, at the Guggenheim Museum, I learned just why I don’t get it.  Why sometimes others may not get it, though don’t propose to confess.

On participation (not view) is a conceptual work by Tino Sehgal.  The entire Frank Lloyd Wright-designed rotunda has been stripped bare of all material works.  In its place, Sehgal has hired and trained area youth and adults to interact with museum visitors on a purely verbal plain.  There is nothing concrete to have, nothing one can buy.

You become the work.  You create.  You matter.  You become the matter.

This is how art moved – moved me ~

Mise en scene: I enter museum rotunda and begin the slow, spiral journey upward.  Enter Eric, an 8-year old boy. He is abrupt and stuns me.

Eric: What is progress?

Me: What? Ummmm. Hmmm. Well, okay, to me our view of progress is troubled.  Is progress always moving away from something, assuming that the next thing is better? What’s the proof?  What if it were progress to go back in history and live like farmers?  But that’s not how I’ve been trained to think of progress.

Eric: (He’s been listening intently).  Let me see if I understand?  (He repeats what I said, seeming to process its meaning).

(Eric is approached by a young girl named Fatima.  She’s in middle school.  Eric tells Fatima what I said.  Eric leaves and Fatima continues to walk with me around the rotunda.)

Fatima:  I’ve not heard that view of progress before.  I get it! I really do! Is progress what Government is doing today by bringing back Roosevelt’s New Deal tactics?  Is it good to reissue methods used during the Great Depression today?

(Fatima is met by Mark.  Mark is tall and skinny, probably in his early-30s).

Mark:  Is it bad when preferences become rules?

Me: Oh my God, that’s a great question.  I guess preferences quickly become defense mechanisms, shutting you down?

The dialogue continued onward to the rotunda dome.  I was exhilarated, moved, scared, alive!  As I made my way slowly down the rotunda ramp, I shouted to Mark, “This is progress!”

I didn’t feel art-alienated anymore.  I mattered.  I made “matter.”  I feel the same way when I craft.

I’m ready to go back to the museum canvas.

Similar art ailment? I could be alone.

Tin Treasures to Love

Artist unidentified, ca. 1880; Michigan

Artist unidentified, ca. 1880; New York

Today I happened upon a precious find at the American Folk Art Museum, a fantastic if under-appreciated museum that shares an exterior wall with the behemoth Museum of Modern Art (MoMA) in Midtown Manhattan.

I am quite unfamiliar with the traditions and materials attached to wedding anniversaries.  I’ve been married for 1 yr, 4 mths, and 13 days, but I would hate to pare it down to the quantitative.  Nope, I’d rather talk qualitative.

In my home, I thought anniversaries were celebrated thusly:  husband inscribes book to forward-thinking wife on the merits of equal adulthood (feminism); wife diligently selects longevity products to ensure husband doesn’t keel over at young age. The whole paper, cotton, leather and so forth celebrations are new to me.

These images are from the American Folk Art Museum’s permanent collection. Instantly, I was enamored with these tin treasures of love, once shared by a couple honoring a 10th wedding anniversary.  Tin is a medium with great possibility, a material that can be wrought into ornate motifs or left bare to age freely with the elements.  Doesn’t that represent the the ideal harmony of a marriage well made?

A dive into the history of these light-hearted pieces will help encourage further delight.  Below is an excerpt on the tin anniversary tradition from the museum’s website.

The custom of giving anniversary gifts of increasing value through the years of marriage originated in medieval Germany but was interpreted in a whimsical manner in Victorian America. During the second half of the nineteenth century, the tenth—or tin—anniversary became an occasion of riotous celebration, and whimsical gifts made of tin were presented to the married couple. Often they were oversized replicas of everyday items or humorous pieces with personal meaning. In 1881, John H. Young wrote that the custom of “celebrating wedding anniversaries has of late been largely practiced.” Ten years later, Richard A. Wells, in Culture and Dress of the Best Society, suggested that “a general frolic is in order at the tin wedding. It is an occasion for getting together old friends after ten years of married life. . . . The invitations for this anniversary may be made upon cards covered with tin foil or upon the ordinary wedding note paper with a tin card enclosed. Those guests who desire to accompany their congratulations with appropriate presents have the whole list of articles manufactured by the tinner from which to select.”

Professional tinsmiths cut the pieces from sheet tin using templates, and the sections were soldered together. The seams were hooked over each other and hammered to create a tight seal. Surviving anniversary tin demonstrates not only the skill with which the items were fashioned but also the variety of forms available. The top hat, eyeglasses, slippers, bonnet, and bow tie are part of a group of more than twenty pieces discovered together in Gobles, Michigan, and were probably gifts from a single tenth-anniversary celebration.

What traditions of love do you craft or collect?  Does material carry meaning?

On Continuity

Pieter Brueghel, The Elder (1565).  A stop-dead-in-your-tracks vision of the hunt.  At this moment, I can see the shadows of my art history professor's gesticulations on the wall of the lecture hall, carrying us through the scene guided by a private passion unleashed.

Pieter Brueghel, The Elder (1565). A stop-dead-in-your-tracks vision of the hunt.

In my world –  that little microcosm that rotates next to yours – the holiday season stirs the hunt: The hunt for love, attention, food, shelter and, on my Upper West Side, for the path that is bound to lead our future family to great fortune.

But the hunt for food is not the same as fortune.  The former fulfills primitive need; the latter, modern desire.

This very early morning before the sky was fully light and I was still with myself, I secretly plunged into the tallest snowbank.  Ice, cold, fear and freedom overwhelmed my Wellies and for a split second all I wanted was warmth, not a bit more.  The hunt was over.

Feeling at one with the primeval search, a sense of serenity infiltrates my harried holiday soul. Clueless and hubby must now go to warmer climes, to be with sisters and parents.  And, to craft local dishes such as cho-cho, kallaloo, pop-chow, curried goat, and ox-tail stew alongside Millie, a chef who preserves his island’s heritage with pride.

Where does your hunt end?  How do you come home for the holiday?

Ad Continuum,

The Clueless Crafter

What-if Holidays

With Thanksgiving 2009 in the bag and my feeling a bit more like one, I have had a precious moment to reflect.

The fete commenced Wednesday night with the requisite - if you’re a New Yorker, a bit whimsical, and have a brood of kiddies –  visit to the Macy’s Parade balloon blow-up headquarters on the perimeter of the American Museum of Natural History.  What a blow out!  Indebted to a playful Blogher contributor and friend Suzanne Reisman who hosted a party for the event, the hubby and I experienced our first rain-soaked, festive gathering of thankful Manhattanites who, like me, worship Papa Smurf.

Papa Smurf and lots of rain

Big Daddy Smurf

Arriving home late, we shifted into pack-for-the-6am flight-to-the-in-laws-in-Chicago mode.  In an out of character move, I gave no advanced thought about what to wear for Thanksgiving.  Game plan: go with the gut.  After all, that’s what a good part of the holiday centers on.  Amongst an abundance of dresses, tops, shoes, tights and accessories, I stuffed the luggage full of whatever seemed right.  With the last zip of the London Fog travel gear, we were off.

As dawn broke outside the window of seat 24B, it, well, dawned on me that something unusual had happened.  I turned to hubby, poked his shoulder, and shouted with a fusion of awe and glee that I think I had dressed like a turkey.  Huh, he says?!

What-if holidays we dressed the part?

Thankfully it was not a literal interpretation, rather a mere channeling of the Thanksgiving spirit, but it was a significant “coincidence” that warrants an extra forkful of sharing.

* The layered ruffles of the J.Crew dress with iridescent purple and chartreuse hues look a tad like the plumes of feathers on the turkey’s bodice, right?

* The striped turtleneck could be mistaken for the wings or tough dark skin on its legs, no doubt?

* The patent leather brown oxford shoes with the talon heel, could they not be the bird’s feet?

* And, c’mon, the rose scarf hanging loosely around the neck?  Is that not the turkey’s wattle?

When the ensemble that emerged from my suitcase was fully arranged, I and my wattle had a glorious gut-busting laugh.

On this What-if Holiday, I continue to be thankful for the freedom to express and the abundant ways that one can go about it.

My muse

My muse

A turkey impression that I can't believe I am posting

A turkey impression that I can't believe I am posting

Displaying my turkey flair

Displaying my turkey flair

It reminds me of a recent visit with mom to see the exhibit “Rare Bird of Fashion:  The Irreverent Iris Apfel” at the Peabody Essex Museum.  Iris is a rare bird, summoning the spirit of her interior life and making it visible to the world.  Her audacious expressions rejuvenated my spirit, leaving me with that extra boost of chutzpah to go out into the world with all my feathers splayed.

Click on the links above for an amazing application that allows you to curate Ms. Apfel’s wardrobe for yourself! A perfect opportunity to play What-if I . . .?

Crafting Coupledom

View of Manhattan from Brooklyn's Fulton Ferry Park

View of Manhattan from Brooklyn Flea Market

When Friday dawns, we are both so glad to wipe the week’s sweat off our brow and settle into the expanse of the weekend.  It’s a time of endless opportunity.  A time to stroll to our favorite neighborhood brunch spot and refill the larder with Manhattan’s abundant, unique delicacies.  Life seems so rich, unstructured and open for adventure.

It’s also a time to fight.  Oh yeah.

Because, despite it all, we are still individuals who have slightly different concepts of what an ideal Saturday should be.

My Ideal Saturday

Pop up at 7:30am to the magical sound of the sleeping city.  Put on a pot of coffee and venture to the front door to gather the weekend edition of the New York Times.  Hubby wakes up a bit later and meets me in the living room for side-by-side reading and talk of the day ahead.  New York’s news, neighborhood doings (any gossip? Love it!), and deep musing into the future of career, family, and any fantasy punctuate the crisp black and white perfection of my ideal Saturday morning.

His Ideal Saturday

Wake up whenever his body is healed and rejuvenated from the arduous week.  6am or 11am, what does it matter?  Roll around, yawn, lull in and out of sleep, stretch, sigh, move one leg, find glasses, find me.  He’s up and a happy camper! The day ahead?  Whatever we want!

What do we want? Do we want to kick around on our own, thinking and doing things in proximity yet separately?  Or do we want to walk the city in sync, enmeshed within the other? Neither one knows exactly what the other wants or needs at that very moment.

It changes.  We change.

Ah yes, we’ve changed since day one of our marriage, we changed yesterday and we will be changing tomorrow.

I now let him sleep in (sometimes) and, well, he refills my cup of coffee while I read the paper.  I know – he’s a great guy. He also makes the best oatmeal pancakes and that is one thing we both adore!

Some weekend ways we crafted coupledom.

Saturday ~ Ventured to the preview of an auction of works on paper at Swann Galleries.  Together we studied the prints and read the catalogs, trying to listen to and learn what the other finds meaningful and visually pleasing.  If we were to one day start an art collection, what would it look like?  Could we compromise, come to an agreement on aesthetic values?

Sunday ~ Hopped over to DUMBO’s waterfront for the Brooklyn Flea, a small market with an array of vintage clothing, ceramics, furniture, and other delightful odds and ends.  It also boasts the sweetest, melt-in-your-mouth Connecticut Lobster roll (brushed with drawn butter, not mayo) that both of us have ever laid claws on.  And, get a load of those pizza margheritas handcrafted on the spot in that elegant pizza oven!

Moto Pizza's ornate, mobile wood burning oven

Moto Pizza's ornate, mobile wood burning oven

Succulent lobster roll from Red Hook Lobster Pound

Succulent lobster roll from Red Hook Lobster Pound

Sitting next to each other, lobster roll and warm slices in hand, we knew we had come to one understanding of what blissful coupledom could look, smell, and taste like.

What do you do?

HouseCraft in America’s North Country

One Woman’s Enlightened Vision of Homecrafting

Yes, to my surprise, housecraft is a word.

How many of us think that house keeping is drudgery, that in pursuit of perfection we’ve subscribed to a lifelong task of Swiffering, vacuuming, dusting, and dish washing?  Keeping house, I learned on recent vacation to Tapawingo, New York’s storied Adirondack getaway, is a lot different than keeping home.

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Keeping House is the acceptance of culturally codified rules, beliefs and myths that for generations have informed the domestic ideal.  Followers of “keeping house” pray to the Windex Wizard and pay deference to the Clorox King and his lady the Queen of Clean.  They see self reflection in the image of a spotless stove and believe that material goods will bestow years of prosperity and happiness.

Keeping Home is the throwing away of this false religion.  It’s the empowering notion that the home is something that each of us creates as a reflection of individual desires and needs.  Home is not a commodity.

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Tapawingo’s open air kitchen, all designed and crafted by her and her late husband

Tapawingo is a place of lore so seemingly untrue that you may not believe it exists.  It is a family home that from the 1940s on gradually pieced into a compound, hand built by Margo Fish (at right) and her late husband Howard. Howard proposed to 15-year-old Margo on Tapawingo’s porch;  A half century later, he unexpectedly passed while on a walk in the woods near their cherished place.  Margo, full of life, zest, sadness, love and memories carries Tapawingo’s torch into the future.

Margo also carries all sorts of things to fashion Tapawingo into the famed magical cabin-manor it has become.  During the 4-day stay, Margo managed the affairs of her home with vigor, yet effortless mastery.  At any moment, I would catch her with broom in hand, brushing away the leaves that fell from nature’s trees; plucking a fern on a whim for replanting; carrying petrified birch to line Tapawingo’s winding paths; and, straining a boiling pot of baby red potatoes for that evening’s impromptu dinner party of 20.

A Reflection on the Meaning of Home

On the last evening while I sat looking into the mirror that is Lake Placid on another of Margo’s hand creations, a rough-hewn twig and wood porch chair (she taught herself how to make all the furniture at Tapawingo), my thoughts turned to my own home.  Since our wedding a year ago, I have been grappling with the concept of housecraft and whether I could find empowerment and self expression in this venue. Do you ask the same?

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Margo’s handcrafted furniture, deck railings overlooking Lake Placid (above) and twig hutch for silver and glass

After Margo’s Tapawingo, it became crystal clear:  we don’t find ourselves in a home, we are the home.  It’s subtle, I know.  By shaping, molding, and working raw materials into beautiful, utilitarian structures and furnishings like Margo, we debunk the myth that the home is something we are powerless to create.  By not buying into commodity culture or praying to false domestic gods, Margo evolves home craft into a transcendent, self-empowering, spiritual practice.

Home is the extension of the self, carrying with it history, integrity, morals, values, and dreams. I feel less afraid of my home and more at peace with the potential of crafting my own version. Unfortunately, I’m just afraid I won’t be able to craft one with as much grace and sprezzatura as Margo.

What do you think?  Are their differences between house and home?  Is the practice of homecrafting empowering or destructive to women?  If you know of any woman or man who has a unique take on housecraft, share here.

Voyeurism and the Artist’s Open Studio

The rebranded totally revamped incarnation of the Museum of Art and Design (formerly, the American Craft Museum) openend last Septemeber 2008 at Columbus Circle, a bustling intersection on Manhattan’s Upper West Side and Central Park South.  As part of the institution’s education and outreach program, it hosts Artist Open Studios every day of the week on the 6th floor.  Last Sunday, I stopped in to see what Bridget Parris, a skilled Industrial Designer with home hardgood designs gracing Anthropologie’s catalogs, the european-inspired women’s wear and decor specialist, was creating.  On the bus ride to the museum, I was envisioning a post about the rewards of visiting an open studio, of learning first-hand from the artist, crafter or designer by joining in on a student-teacher dialogue.  I further hoped to pick up a skill or technique for a future craft.  What came from the visit, however, was entirely unexpected.

Watching someone at work, in the midst of a creative moment, feels invasive and uncomfortably personal.

In an open studio context, you quickly get the impression that there are unspoken rules of engagement.  Do not stare;  scan the studio with enthusiasm; never fix eyes on something that may appear unfinished, private; look interested; refrain from too many questions when s/he is creating; make art-intelligent statements; mind your step — these items are one of a kind!;  maintain appropriate physical and metaphorical distance between you, the subordinate, and the artist-teacher.  In the presence of art and craft making, behavior is heavily coded, turning what should be a pleasant, informative experience into quite possibly one of the most awkward encounters a person could have.

Ever walked in on someone naked, sharing equally in their horror as you turn to panic?  That’s exactly how I experience an artist’s open studio — can’t get out of there fast enough, yet am compelled to stay and mingle in the artist’s private practice.

Gustave Caillebotte (1848-1894), a wealthy French realist-impressionist artist painted crafts and tradesmen at work.  Caillebotte’s pictorial treatment of the laboring class came to mind at Parris’s open studio, where I sensed I was more voyeur than visitor.

Caillebotte_floor_scrapers_1875 Above, The Floor Scrapers by Gustave Cailebotte, 1875 (oil on canvas) 57 1/2 in. x 40 in.

The 1875 painting Les raboteurs de parquet or The Floor Scrapers, a study Caillebotte did of the working class laborers hired to repair his studio, is a poignant rendering of the complex relationship between the upper and working classes and between the fine artist and the skilled artist/artisan. Caillebotte depicts the sweat and raw muscularity of men in the throes of backbreaking labor.  The physical possession of his subjects goes beyond Caillebotte’s preference to paint the men nearly naked, stripped of their privacy, but to the formal qualities of the work itself.  The angle that the viewer enters the scene is from above, pinning the men firmly in the control of the artist and by proxy our gaze.  The power of the artist is asserted further by the imposed sense of claustrophobia, signifying a tenor of ownership. If you are inclined, Norma Broude’s book Gustave Caillebotte and the Fashioning of Identity in Paris and Terry E. Smith’s In Visible Touch:  Modernism and Masculinity both offer additional in-depth analyses into the subject.

Caillebotte channeled the inherent discomfort, perhaps anxiety, that arises from a relationship in which power is unevenly distributed.  Unlike Caillebotte I was not the dominating force in the open studio dynamic, which would have ideally constructed the perfect opportunity to absorb all the lessons that the expert desired to impart.  However,  the sense that I had violated a sacred space, whether perceived or true, prevented the free-flowing exchange of information.

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Above, The House Painters by Gustave Caillebotte, 1876 (oil on canvas) approx. 35 in. x 45 in.

What has been your experience in the studio?  I am quite curious!

Tom Colicchio’s Real Craft

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I doubt New York City’s Craft restaurant, chef-owner Tom Colichhio’s flagship on E. 19th Street in Manhattan’s Flatiron District could have come at any other moment in culinary history than when it did.  Nor could his Craft empire which presently includes Craftsteak, Craftbar, and ‘wichcraft and spans the US from Atlanta to Las Vegas have thrived the way it has.  William Grimes, then restaurant critic now Obit writer for the New York Times captured the essence of Craft in a December 2001 review.  Here’s what he had to say:

“Craft invites diners to take a trip.  The destination is a simpler, cleaner, more honest America, a place where the corn is bright yellow, the bread exhales clouds of yeasty sweetness and the fish swim in water as pure as Evian.  It’s a vision of food heaven, a land of strong pure flavors and back-to-basics cooking techniques.”

And when was this written?  Mr. Colichhio’s restaurant opened shortly before the terrorist attacks of September 2001; Mr. Grimes’s words flow from the open wounds of a country struck by an incredible catastrophe, and its hopeful longing for resolution.  Food is the remedy here, which Colicchio crafted up not a minute too soon.

Colicchio’s return to a simpler way of treating food, one that defers to its innate qualities was a refreshing practice in the era of vertical food.  The 1990s was a decade when on trend chefs were plating increasingly tall visual presentations, as if a perfectly balanced tower would suggest that the elements comprising it would be, by proxy, just as harmoniously balanced on the human palate.  Colicchio eschewed “culinary theatrics” in favor of an ingredient-driven approach to food and dining.

In suit, the menu at Craft attests to a pared down dining experience, where the diner selects a meat or fish by its preparation and a side from a no-frills list.  Nowhere does an inflated description distract from Craft’s credo:  skillful preparation sympathetic to once again elevating food to the starring role.  While Colicchio’s craft may seem simple, perhaps obvious, he is actually part of a long lime of crafters that have confidently “revolted into the past” to offer the jaded something seemingly new.  Like a good crafter, Colicchio seeks integrity in material and form.

Americans were ready for Craft.  The 90s culinary scene bombarded diners with empty promises:  food that was too often too difficult to eat, if physically satisfying at all.  The aftermath of 2001 required a craft that was sensitive enough to offer succor to the wounded spirits and palates of Americans.  The last thing New Yorkers wanted to digest were bits and pieces of a toppled tower of shaved tuna draping over a single fava bean.  The food had to work on the human plane — a safe distance from the verticality of skyreaching food that all too easily can crumble to an indiscernible mess.   Craft gave the people what they didn’t know they needed.

I am including links to a few video interviews and articles covering the rise of Craft.

Yoga Is Physical and So Is Craft

The below is insight from an amateur perspective.

How quickly the crafter’s spark can be extinguished!  I have noticed lamentably that I would be able to be content if I never crafted again, that I could survive happily on the positive energy from a previous accomplishment for the rest of my life.  But, I grasp that I can’t stop at the point of a singular success each time my eye catches a glimpse of the lighthouse etching proudly propped beside my monitor.  Although I remember how proud I was at its unveiling, I do not feel that pride surging through me.  If you have no clue what I’m getting at, rethink how you feel the moment after a great workout at the gym, how high and how perfect you feel.  How then do you feel after you haven’t gone for an entire week?  Lousy, right?

My yoga teacher said a few things this morning that resonated with why I sense it is meaningful for craft to become a part of my weekly, if not daily, routine.  She said that “We practice and perfect the physical (yoga) to get better at being ourselves.”  When we botch a pose, forget to breathe or topple onto our heads, we are really working at rooting ourselves to something greater.

I can 108.7% attest that craft is physical.  I have two angry, red scars on my right forearm and a strained, frequently numb, thumb.  I’m absorbing the idea that craft is on some level a physical expression, which makes it a bit more gritty, even edgy — not like a hobby or something, if I were to stereotype.  It’s active, risky, and painful, challenges that when confronted become triumphs of the self.

Craft is a muscle that requires practice to develop.

Glass Etching Leaves Lasting Impression

On this celebratory day forty years after the United States landed the manned spacecraft Apollo 11 on the moon’s surface, I observed my own personal victory by way of a different craft.

It was, however, with depressed spirit that my day started off, begrudgingly aware that I had not been holding up to my declared end of the bargain. But, to submerse myself in a craft that most likely would offend tried-and-true crafters and virtually humiliate me has been a real hurdle to overcome.  In the hierarchy of skilled craft, using a commercial kit and calling it a true craft is similar to popping a Lean Cuisine in the microwave and calling it “homemade,” no?  If so, I’m guilty as charged.  Alas, the snazzy Armour Etch Deluxe Glass Etching Kit brimming with innumerable hokey stencils of jolly snowmen and corny love phrases was at $24.95 something I could afford to write about.

I am not nor have ever been someone who by nature derives pleasure from crafting.  Before this, it was very unlikely that I would have been spotted on the hunt for the next project to begin, thrilled that I had come across a new material or craft resource to investigate.  I am most comfortable in my status as the curious observer who gets joy from mulling over someone elses’s finished work.

A first pass through of the directions, written imperceptibly small and with abundant references to non-descriptive visuals, was enough to warrant a toss in the garbage.  I huffed and fumed at those sly marketers who back when the most recent version of this kit was developed (probably in the 90s as the garish, dated box cover attests) advertised this as “3 simple steps”! BAIT AND SWITCH, BAIT AND SWITCH, I proclaim! (Stick with me because I was and often am bombarded with thoughts of ineptitude when it comes to building things and following directions, which leads to spasms of paranoia and a fair share of grumbling ;-).

IMG_0559 The Armour Etch brochure showcasing a smattering of fancy flower stencils.

Recounting my sentiments and logic, all the above hemming and hawing is admittedly nonsensical, even asnine!  With relative ease, I did create an impeccable rendition of a lighthouse nestled on a rocky ocean shore.  The quaint 4x 4 in. glass image happily reminds me of the famous Twin Lights off Gloucester’s Good Harbor Beach, where my parents live and I enjoy lazy weekend visits.  In sum, the emotion, the satisfaction, the power, and the fear that enveloped me as I impatiently clawed at the last blue bits of stencil hiding the etch from view can be described as one of deep fulfillment.  Below, a scene similar to Gloucester’s Twin Lights:

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A tranquil scene eteched in glass.  Well worth the internal tumult!

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I suppose we all have our judgments, which really are tools we use to hold ourselves back.  From the outset, I judged my ability to create with confidence, fearful that I would be unable to handle frustration and failure should things not go as they should.  Instead, I chalked up any possible incompetence to the hackneyed concept of the at-home crafting kit, which I reasoned would qualify me a fool if I took it seriously and actually tried to do well.  Of course, with this clever equation, I would never let myself down.

Completing this craft exercise banished the Monday blues, etching a surprising last impression.  I, in fact, rather like and appreciate — ah em, uh — kitschy seascapes.  Whoever thought I could be so clueless to not know that about myself.